Pressure~!~!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i doubled that exclamation.. hold on a little more then that!

So today at church Pastor talked a bit bout this. how Jesus sometimes was in pressure situations an how he always responded with answers that were full of faith an of the Father. How he didn't rush any where. How he didn't necessirily care how everyone like him. Or what they thought. He had enemies who dind't approve, an followers who strongly approved-

With that, I totally have came to this place again... an it seems like i come here at least once a month..
Pressure, i tend to pressure my self way to much
i tend to recieve other peoples pressure way to much
I tend to act by pressure instead of wisdom-

Think i'm being a tad dramatic.. i'm not that crazy but just had this moment of what the hec... My life is mine, an i will live not by others standards or opions or approval, but Gods.

I've lived this many times an think i do good at it, but am glad they spoke on it today, bc it was almost hedging its way back in my heart........ The world is like spinning(truth), and i'm to live in it an not get dizzy! lol how do u do this?
Well its knowing your mission, and knowing who your following:) and who's your team:)

My calling has nothing to do with making people feel good or me feeling good. But being more an more like Christ to the world- which in that alone, means obediant- And confident in who i am. I'm not to be like others but like Christ. and when i talk to GOd bout this he tells me He wants me to have heart like his, but to be the women He's created me to be. It won't ever be Christ an may not even look like who he was or did. But being myself in the midst of a world that tries to tell u who u r to be, an if u make it or mis it~

Pressure...............
their were times when i've failed............to the world yes.......... to God noooo!

Pressure.....
being a freind when it means not being there for them

Pressure.......
Not being on time when the appointment says 1, an u have probllem at home that needs care-

Pressure.......
a neighbor needs a lift and your already late for work

Pressure...........
the class wants it this way, when u have already desided how it was going to be

Pressure............
Praying for a random person, while not knowing what they'll think, or if praying for a healing, it would b healed

Pressure........
Going into news place an new people, and being labeled by the shoes u wear, or the way you laugh, or the stupid things u wish u did or dind't say

Pressure........
Parents releying on you to be something that you were never to be

Pressure.............
new cars, new diomond rings...................

Pressure.................
A feeling of impact on my mind which tells me i have to act immedietly~
BUT because i trust in God, i don't need to believe fast dramatic lies which will try to drain me and hinder what my real mission is.Or what currently i'm to do........
Instead of the pressure, i have to wait on him in prayer. Where his will is my vision, an my vision collides in his will.

Hm randoms for the night.............theres good pressure an bad pressure, learing to act where the peace is, an trust despite the effects