Christ-mas

Ita been a wild an amazing week, of trying to celebrate the ressurection of the Lord. But i pretty sure it should always be my focus, remebering How Jesus rose from the dead. This is pretty fliping fantabulous~ an the most exciting thing ....is that He still is alive an well, willing to move in the hearts an lives of us! ain't that something!

I was reading a book by Bill Johnson, an it had some phrase like, God wants us to experiance who he is.. The it went something like if we just believe from others testimonies an are fine with the fact that their true... but then not willing to allow God to move like that in my life.. Do you really belive their true.. an if u do why would He not want the same for your life?

Hm maybe its tricky to get but maybe not... But the profound thought that came to me... is if i believe in GOd & believe his word; Then thier must be a depth of trusting GOd for more- I know when God first called me in missions in 2004; there was this radicle jump of faith.. where i had no money or no clue what type of jump i was taking but it meant leaving everything for the Hope of believing God had a awesome plan for my life-
This passion for the Lord, wasn;t a jump of immediate whoa i love the Jesus thing but a revelation of a call from God... I think when Gods lays things on our heart, or literally calls us into a certain level of obediance an trust... You have the choose to say yeh lord, or the too walk the opposite way
I wonder what it would have been if it didn't obey the call of Jesus...
I can't imagine how different i would be, an how different my faith in GOd would be.
I relate to the life of JAcob alot, because he chose to find God not by others word or following people, but Jacob himself, had a life of meeting with GOd by acts of faith an just moving forward. Depsite all the drama of Jacob getting the blessing and everything, I see him as a man who found God for himself, through so many experiances.

And i think that what God intends for us, to find God in the midst of everything in life! To invite him in the hard the happy an the crazt times .. cause he desires to reveal his self so much also.

I forget sometimes how awesome this God :) And i guess it takes me stepping out of my comfort an control zone, to say yes to casting my everything at his feet, so that He can make it perfect~ While obeying him when He say no ...or go.. or.. yes!
Believing this life is not about me only, but the GOd who had the intension of bringing me here~

Lastly is the desire for the top... I think its human nature to want to be well off to be known as something and to be totally comfortable in life~
While when we look at the life of Jesus,(the GOd of the universe!!) Its completely the opposite, in Philippians 2:6-12 it says;

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in very naturea God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very natureb of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
9Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
Shining as Stars

12Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, 13for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

THis it pretty outstanding to realize this is the GOd we are called to follow, And i'm sometimes distraught that still we don't get it! I mean what more could have God have done to show us, that there more to life then making a idol of ourselves. I'm really challenged by Christs life, but even more that He knew the fathers love... And mean how can you obey GOd so deeply if you don't know his love.
How can you trust anyone if you don't know their love.. Right So i'm guessing its a backward thing... Know GOds love..
Which will help you; ..Trust & honor Him~

Why did Christ decide to do the whole cross thing...
one he knew GOds love
two he knew what was on Gods heart
three he knew that his life was to be a redemption story... for those who were waiting for a messiah & lead them in freedom! while at the same time He came to those who didn't know they needed a savior:)

So i guess knowing that your life has a purpose in Christ too! knowing that it begins with understnading that your loved immesely by the Lord..

Soap i guess it's being in his love that, his plan unfolds:)

Welp thats it for the moring somehow, i still have more christmas early dinners to go to... i think this is dinner #3.. crazy. i hope its not ham:)jk

merry christmas:)!?

SO once again another time of not writing consistantly, it must be the weather:)

So yesterday was quite a day i guess.Work was fine an loved the sun shining all day out side by the lake:) smiles for sure

While knowing my brother was coming home an my freind havin a get to gether with some gals i havn't seen for a bit~
These all seem like good times, an christmas music just adds that touch right. But there sometimes i wish the season would pass by. People seems so artifitial an willing to do whatever to please other people so that Chrsitmas would be good. But is it possible when theres still much termiol thats never been delt with. Seriously do u think a week of fuzzy snowmen an fake christmas trees with patch the heartbreak, the dissapointments and the lies.
Well i'de say no why would it?

but then i glance again, at the meaning of the time... what a awesome time to have reconciliation in those parts of your life in which are waiting for healing!

I'm such a jerk i think.. well from my past i would call myself one.. just because now i love confrontation now. Before i would ignore it. But i really think that, people should tak these times of getting together to be real with each other!

So first 3 minutes of fam getting together argueing already, i'm thinking how the hec can i get the through this next wk! I can't anylonger just ignore additudes an words being spoken....... Can we at least consider each other!!!

Next. my freind says she's feeling suicidal after a hard breakup, i don't realy understand it all, but it sadden me that such amazing young lady could come to that place:( I hadn'e seen her for a very long time, an she has always been a awesome freind an gift from GOd to me. she was my first christian freind at 16. She has been through so much junk sence i saw her last. I mean, i think its a miricle she is still alive, bc of the things that happened to her:(

I guess what i'm getting at is depsite this time of year when everyone so focused on trying to give the right thing or be the right thing, i guess it comes down to love.
We all need it:) and i hope that the world won't forget Jesus, an how despite what we tryto find in the world, there is always a King waiting to be are everything!

What i put my trust in other then God can surely sweep away.. i really desire to know him more this season, instead of what i don't have or what i need to get! Or whoever i believe i have to please.. because my life is no longer mine, but belongs to God!
What pleases God is a heart set on him:)

whole hearted~!

Do u ever feel like u need to get hit on the head with a bamboo stick?
sorta like what the crazy monkey guy did in lion king..lol random

I feel like i was hit tonight~ Ger.....................
I wish i wasn't so lame at beliving the things of God~

So The Lord has been speaking me about a few different things , 'what i tihink as big things'.. yet i've been putting them aside, thinking that won't happen or maybe someother time, doesn't look good right now.
while then seeking him for more of the picture!!! How lame am i right~ Seriously lame ASS, an i never even say that!
I guess i'm just beating myself up for not being obediant! Like yes GOd to the things that are ssmall an seem possible, but wait GOd.. on the things that seem too big, or out of my mind~

Like hello did GOd not part the sea~

3 years ago during a worship session in Kona, i was praying to God about the bible outreach that was coming up, an whether i was going to the right place, an how the hec the money was going to show up..:) Just one of those places of dependency, an hunger for GOds voice:) Me going to thailand seems sorta huge especially having no money at the time:)
While at the end of worship the Holy SPirit was really encouraging me to believe and trust.. i was on my knees jsut surrendering and as i opened my eyes,.. there laying in front of me was bamboo of a tree.. No joke in the middle of the Ohana court in front of me was bamboo little peices~@!!! Right away i felt like God was reassuring me of his promise, that when he speaks something He's will make it happen:) In thailland, the phillipine an indonesia i saw bamboo~
I knew God was encouraging me through a small miricle...i mean where else did it come from? No one else had any!

Oh an you bet... will God let me run away from his call to me on this sorta big event~
Hec no... though i seem to ignore it, i mentioned it to a freind tonight>an he of course:) reassured me of the good old, "sometimes God calls you to do really big things, bc He wants to do the impossible..."
Okay isn't this what my life has al been about-
Why did i have to hear from soemone else to let it seek into my heart!

Ger.. i'm disapointed with my lack of faith! Yet I pray that GOd would let me have huge faith to move your kingdom, when he gives me opportunity to use it, an i ignore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm totatly a loser right now:)

LOL okay over it now... but seriously... WHy do i or people have to go in circles instead of going toward the target^
I know i have avery western mind set, where if u want something u say yes or no. Unlike some places saying yes first is inpolite an even sayin no 3 times can be showing respect. But hello. me not in india! Nor does GOd work that way!( or does he..hm)

Cut to the chase. Follow God an seek him for what he's put on your heart an mind. Never let a yellow flower get away unsmelled it may just have the scent to heal the nantions.......(that was a very deep statement) hehe

anyhow.. i havn't blogged for awhile.. neat things have been happening and I'm realizing more an more- That god is in control!
That the moments that seem random usually arn't, and the way to change your heart is to understand GOds~

- Oh lastly.. the 3rd coolest thing i ever saw happen when i was there for my sisters birth~ I love the state of birth, not quite for me:) but seeing how Life begins, an GOds complex creation in it all id brilliant... Gosh He's so dang smart!~

I also have been mum for a couple days while sister wasin hospital... i loved watching my nephew, despite his crazy energy an putin his hand in my cherrios.. He is a delight to hang with. I love that he's so free, an has so much love an joy:)

Randomly... i was upset with something someone said to me early in the morning, an hadn't processed it all day.. now all of sudden my lil nephew became anoying to me...( an this is so not like my character) So i asked GOd, Lord why am i so upset anoyed at this little wild child... Then The Lord showed me what was really anoying me... the statement someone said to me earlier.. I knew i dind't delt with it an no was effectin how i felt bout my lil prince - So i began to to say a prayer of forgiveness to this person, an despite what they said was mean an not in love, i needed ot forgive them! It was sorta sad, bc i love this person very much an to see them hurt me an not even care, was anoying~ BUt i knew that Jesus doesn't want me to carry that pain... SO i gave it to him- Right then, i sorta had a tear or too:) an my nephew(1.5yrs) came running to me with toilets paper!!!!!! And put it in my face:) It was the most beautiful thing ever, how the hec did he pull that off!.. not sure especally the bathroom not being very close by either! but just for the first time experiance sympathy from a lil baby boy~
I knew that if Jesus was visibly there he'd b doing thesame thing. God understand the hard emotions an what it takes to forgive those who wronged u! an i have to remember it's bc of his grace an love that i can forgive....
Not saying i'm perfect an never harmed anyone but~ i just really appreciate How God desires us to be free from the things that hold us down! & So we can live freely:)
the end of the story goes, i all of the suden was released from this irratance, an was all aboat playing with the lil guy:) Whole heartedly~
Okay the end~!

God, compels us to seek him~& know his love& will

So i'm waken with the most amazing song:)
How deep the fathers love for us~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!

Its just what i needed to hear an remember, That my daddy loves me! I know this but need to remember it~ No matter what God loves me. Nothing in this world is more beautiful then his love!

I then have been repeating this verse that i heard during Julie's talk about reaching the millions of children on the street, in india, china an africa, an soo on! CHRISTS LOVE COMPELS US!
! Corinthians 5:13-21

If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 14For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. 15And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.

16So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! 18All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. 20We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21God made him who had no sin to be sina for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

I really stand on this verse! ITs all bout him!and what he did, it is an never want it to b about me!

I need his Spirit to be my guide an everything, bc I'm GOds friend he's right beside me too!

I'm bombarded at also what was preached at churchSunday, while just got a meail ffrom a missionary who also shared the same message, About What Jesus an his followers were to be about>
The Year of the Lord’s Favor= Isaiah 61:1

1The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,a
2to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.
4They will rebuild the ancient ruins
and restore the places long devastated;
they will renew the ruined cities
that have been devastated for generations.
5Aliens will shepherd your flocks;
foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.
6And you will be called priests of the LORD,
you will be named ministers of our God.
You will feed on the wealth of nations,
and in their riches you will boast.
7Instead of their shame
my people will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace
they will rejoice in their inheritance;
and so they will inherit a double portion in their land,
and everlasting joy will be theirs.
8“For I, the LORD, love justice;
I hate robbery and iniquity.
In my faithfulness I will reward them
and make an everlasting covenant with them.
9Their descendants will be known among the nations
and their offspring among the peoples.
All who see them will acknowledge
that they are a people the LORD has blessed.”
10I delight greatly in the LORD;
my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
11For as the soil makes the sprout come up
and a garden causes seeds to grow,
so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise
spring up before all nations.

Yesterday, i was praying while driving an was like GOd i want to come up to the next level, let me draw closer to you an your goal in my life~ Let nothing distract or say no to the things that are in your mind~ I know i can do all things through you!
Whether its waiting, interceeding, or ministering where ever i go, i am willing to go, an stay:) I think God has greta vsions an dreams for his bride, but it takes faith to see them come into action~
His gas is faith, and obediance~

When no one is moving closer an closer to GOds glory an plans- it sucks up GOds SPirit, it ay where the Spirit of the Lrod is there is freedom! Freedom is a fruit of Gods SPirit! Freedom to come an go, freedom to obey God, rather please man~
God definatley is comeing back soon, whether is be before i die or not, i feel a urgency for missions right now, an pray the church would arise and come up to the next level of obediance and perseverance!

God began speaking to me about his Spirit some more this morning;
We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. 7No, we speak of God’s secret wisdom, a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began. 8None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. 9However, as it is written:

1 Cor 2:9-16.. mainly 16

“No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him”b—
10but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.

The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. 11For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man’s spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. 12We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, that we may understand what God has freely given us. 13This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words.c 14The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned. 15The spiritual man makes judgments about all things, but he himself is not subject to any man’s judgment:

16“For who has known the mind of the Lord
that he may instruct him?”d
But we have the mind of Christ.

God entrusts us to depend on him an his Spirit, to take it not for granted. To obey and believe, i'm so grateful for his Spirit which leads us into God's mind, i pray we the body of Christ would wait before GOd and seek him an his thoughts

Amen, some random beats for the morning:)
Gosh so exciting to be in the days of the Lord!
breakfast here i come:)

the depth within a soul

The God hears the cry upon the needy
ps 72:12, "For he will deliver the needy who cry out, the afflicted who have no one to help."

So havn't bloged for a bit:) but this Saterday was global missions day.At the prayer house there were alot of awesome speakers an times of worship, including the girl i was watching bringing her lil battery opporated walking dog on stage..lol it was terribly funny! I was playing congo's an well she was worshiping an dancing in the front, then took her dog an walked it on the front of the stage...... gosh if there was ever a cuter moment then that, don't know, all the people there were, so loving though. and just continued into worship. After a few minutes of getin my kick of it, came of stge an took her remote controled dog away, an told her she'll have it later. It was interesting though to see her do that, all day i alowed her to have it an she didn't press the bark or the walk button. Bc i told her it would b gone. I knew i had to allow her to show me she was able to b responsible for self control. But right wehn i left her an played congo's, she acted up!

That night when i had time to breathe an look back on the day, i asked her why she did that. i was expeted her usually silly answers, like the dog wanted ot walk or, i was bored, or i don't know.. Yet she said, 'i wanted to make u laugh.' In other words i need your attention. She sure did make me laugh! I love this girl so much, an if it were possible would adopt her in a heart beat. But for now God has just showned me the love he has for her, an also my self in this situation.
During this particular set of worship it was very much alive an fun an just loving on Daddy. It was all bout GOds great love an exceptance! How we can be free in Him, an be free in worship! When she went up an did that; everyine excepted her, except maybe one of the worship leaders::) lol but she's ove rit now.. (she likes things to go as planed) But, wow how much God loves an has compassion on us! Even while we were sinners it say(bible )in Roman 5, how he died for us! this is so remarkable:) Even though we may not be fully mature an doing things, as 'right' he still loves an excepts us.

Another aha moments of the day- There was a lady from BRazil who was so beautiful! She shared on her part in missions, an particulary felt led to share her testimony~Man knock me off my seat! I've heard met an worked umong a few prostitutes before, alot of times it was at the end of they still were or just geting out, but not a lady/ man who've stop for mnay years an now serving the Lord. this was her story, Eva, was born from a poor family and very disfunctual,she eventually moved with a another lady bc she was able to take care of her~ This lady made her do many chores epsecialy cleaning , during her stay their the lady taugh the girl to read. Mainly to understand the bible! eva hated bing forced to read it when she was young~
As she got a little bit older an out of school, she needed money for lving on her own. Still she was poor, and wasn't able to get anywhere. Her family have now moved an she pretty much was alone in a city.
She tried to find job, but not luck. She had heard of a the ladies of the streets, an chose that path as a way!!!!!!`

btw. this breaks my heart~ to hear some one have to make such at terrible decision like that. People look down an frown upon these women, an men, while those who do, perhaps ahve never been in this situation~
Eva said everynight she would feel horrible for all that she had done, an dirty, But prayed everynight to God.

She earned lots of money this way, an eventually found a place to live an invited her family to live with her, as they had pret much nothing too. Eva was what everyone thought to b a normal girl during the day, but night her secret haunted her!
She would go to church, an ask for forgiveness, an felt so ashamed, an useless.

eventually she came to apoint of this is enough God, i can't keep living a 2 way walk with u. She needed a way out!
She began to remember how she was a amazing cleaning lady, SO decided to open a business of cleaning an stop the strrets!
Through this she began to expand her walk through Christ an hear about ministries to reaching out to those workin the streets. She felt God call her to go back an minister to those people. Within many years, They ebagn to open a shelter for these ladiess, an share the love an hope in chrst! Eva then somehow met, (one of the other speakers we had Julie form mozambique)
She heard bout julies ministry to also the needy, an became a translator for her! Through this an ever since they have been doing al sorts of ministry, not together always but serving the Lord. Eva married a british man the Lord brought before her in Portugul an have been married ithink what 15-20 yrs now. She has a heart an a calling to go back to Brazil an open another ywam base there, reaching out to the poor an needy there!

How cool to see How God an his love an forgiveness transformed a lady's life!

I pray GOd would release a spirit of compassion upon the body of Christ to look at the needy an hurting and respond with love~
I hear so much about young an older women, in prositution~ Or maybe not labled that, but struggling in this area of sex for money or sex for an love an exceptance~ I can't stand when people lookdown upon them, infact i have some as friends~
They r beautiful, but even to bring it home brighter, beautifully broken:(
Ask one; an you'll surely find abbuse, neglect, and all sorts of hardships that have led them this way. I know Jesus has compassion upon them, and am sick of people judging them!
(john ch4) There was a certain women at the well whom Jesus met there in the middle of the day, a time back then pehaps when people didn't fetch water bc of the heat, but some reason this lady was there at that time..
Story goes as Jesus begin to share to this lady that this water can't not satify her, an that the water Jesus can give her can give eternal life, that she'l never be thirsty again!
This lady jumps on the offer, while then Jesus confronts her with sin! She has many men in her life( perhaps a type of prostitute back then an would answer a ? why she would be at the well when no one else was there, as she would b looked down upon)
Any hows; The story ends by this lady being a evangalist for Jesus, proclaiming to other sameriatans what Jesus had said. And many believed an became Christ followers.

But the fact of the matter as u read this story, God offered her living water? an the lady chose it!
When she left the well she also left her water jar scriptures say. It deosnt' mention too much on everything she had done, or even changed. But Because jesus talked to a lady that everyone looked down upon- A great heart was retored an given hope!Of a GOd who knew her an cared for her:)
I think this is a cry in every generation. Does anyone care, can anyone help..? Is there hope?

For this lady; i believe she understood more of Jesus's love, an i believe she became a friend of his:)
THe scriptures state that after the lady went back an shared the people wanted Jesus to stay. He stay 2 days sharing with them, an many believe in Him! in other words many were saved, many eyes were open to truth!!!
Truth of a prostitute being just as important as a rich man~
The Truth that many need to hear the good news of Jesus-

Lastly; one of the moments i find most profound in this passage is God testify's who He was to the lady at the well.
Many times h dind't right away say who he was, and told people not to share. While he personally testifies i who speak to you, am he, (the messiah!) He knew she needed a savior.....and was at a place of excepting him not just for show or condemnation but in a revelation that her life she was living was going no where but down!

I believe also God's heart beats for ladies out there r in need of a savior, an condemning an making rude comments bout them won't do it. Don't tell a lady to stop wearing a short skirt an a bare to nothing top, before u except her as a human being, possibly crying for something. anything~ I praise GOd i'v never been down this road but am willing to lay down my life to stand for ladies who have never heard of the love of Christ! even if it means hanging out with those society shrudders bout...Because my Daddy led Jesus to do it, because he loved them~

I don't know why i'm sharing this much, but i feel there is a lost generation of Christs followers bc we judge them instead of show them compassion. Lord teach us compassion~

glad this wk end went good, i wasn't how sure it would end, whether the lady i rent for would b right, an the girl i had over would burn the house down, But went extremely good while stretching. I also am astonished how much this little girl taught me! She had some amazing revelations from GOd, that were so simple yet profound! 8yrs old i'm talking bout.
my favorite one, The devil can't listen to worhsip music:)...:)

thanks bc of Him

ps36 5-13
5Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.
6Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
O LORD, you preserve both man and beast.
7How priceless is your unfailing love!
Both high and low among men
findb refuge in the shadow of your wings.
8They feast on the abundance of your house;
you give them drink from your river of delights.
9For with you is the fountain of life;
in your light we see light.
10Continue your love to those who know you,
your righteousness to the upright in heart.
11May the foot of the proud not come against me,
nor the hand of the wicked drive me away.
12See how the evildoers lie fallen—
thrown down, not able to rise!

i now wear ribbons~

i thought it'd b cool to write a novel; on a girl/lady who experianced pain her whole life, and experianced freedom through Jesus. Like she never knew there was healing or peace~ random thought.. only probally cause going through some tooth pain an knowing there is healing an peace in the future !

I'm thinking of the women who had just touched jesus's garmets an was healed immediatly. she suffered for so long then was healed~ I have glimpses of GOd healing me in different areas of life, but to hear that testimony an how it has effected her life would b amazing.
Sometimes in the bible you don't hear the full story, but pieces of people lives and how GOd effected them greatly! I want to know how the lady was different after her healing?! i want to know if she was there when Jesus was being crucified, i want to know if her family began to follow Christ. I want to hear her laugh, an hear her testify for what Great thing he's done!

I want to hear her new daily struggles, an hear how she now reacts to them~
Just random thoughts:)

This is part of the story of Jesus healing!

Mark 5:21-43 Dead Girl and a Sick Woman

21When Jesus had again crossed over by boat to the other side of the lake, a large crowd gathered around him while he was by the lake. 22Then one of the synagogue rulers, named Jairus, came there. Seeing Jesus, he fell at his feet 23and pleaded earnestly with him, “My little daughter is dying. Please come and put your hands on her so that she will be healed and live.” 24So Jesus went with him.

A large crowd followed and pressed around him. 25And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. 26She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. 27When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, 28because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.” 29Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering.

30At once Jesus realized that power had gone out from him. He turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who touched my clothes?”

31“You see the people crowding against you,” his disciples answered, “and yet you can ask, ‘Who touched me?’”

32But Jesus kept looking around to see who had done it. 33Then the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell at his feet and, trembling with fear, told him the whole truth. 34He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

35While Jesus was still speaking, some men came from the house of Jairus, the synagogue ruler. “Your daughter is dead,” they said. “Why bother the teacher any more?”

36Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.”

37He did not let anyone follow him except Peter, James and John the brother of James. 38When they came to the home of the synagogue ruler, Jesus saw a commotion, with people crying and wailing loudly. 39He went in and said to them, “Why all this commotion and wailing? The child is not dead but asleep.” 40But they laughed at him.

After he put them all out, he took the child’s father and mother and the disciples who were with him, and went in where the child was. 41He took her by the hand and said to her, “Talitha koum!” (which means, “Little girl, I say to you, get up!”). 42Immediately the girl stood up and walked around (she was twelve years old). At this they were completely astonished. 43He gave strict orders not to let anyone know about this, and told them to give her something to eat.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UrLLDk3ZLt0

igloo:)

k. God is faithful

This morning, i walked up stairs, an saw snow! U'de think it be a perfect day right. well it was:)

Not bc of the snow, but bc was able to accoplish bunch of things on my agenda and was able to enjoy it~

Nothing to profound to share but just am thankful; for the people GOd has placed in my life~

I'm thankful for Gods amazing faithfulness, i'm thankful for his promises~ I'm thankful theres a place pain free called Heaven!
I'm thankful, that thats wher ei'm destine to be, with my Daddy:) I'm thankful that he carries me when i think i can't do it~ and lifts me up, when i think things r pointless>

But really my tooth hurts alot , have some greta GOd stories to share but can't concentrate- all i have to say he's faithful and i love him! Have alot going on this wkend an believe his grace will carry me through this pain~

something tells me i've believed alot of lies my life, an know some people who have to. this breaks my heart to see people living in bondage. When no one guides you to truth, an while presents life in one way mentality; people can't see the light an don't believe in it! But i believe Jesus has great plans for each one of his children, including i:) And believing is the most important part~! Meetinga russian dental assistant; in IR, with a love for GOd an trust- just reminds me he can do anything in yourlife when your open to his ways, an choose trust then fear~
I'm sur eits hard living here, leaving her family, an such; but she trusted an loved her husband. Like that i totally desire to place God the head of my life ~ and see his ways~!

I know i'm home for awhile for alot of unkknown reasons, but also alot of known. I'm clueless if He is going to release me again into more missions. But i know he's given me a heart for here, an interceeding for USA! But really beyond me doing things, he's allowed me to see His glory n love in may ways~ He keeps pressing me on too his dreams for me an i love it! but it requires patiance and alot of laughing!!!

thanks God for playn the strings on my guitar:)

obtw! another ptl! frends daughter ciara, made a picture of my dog a few months ago in a igloo dog house! i was like that would b so cool to get one. Then i thought i may have to get rid of her, but my parents decided to take her:) Then i was hoping an sorta Hopi God would provide a igloo. Then i' looked at stores an they all were 100$ -200$.. i'm like c'mon.. then randomly was thrown to a website who showed someone was selling a dog igloo for 25$ bucks!!!!!!! in petoskey! Gosh i'm so happy! God provided this beautiful dog, an now He helped me find the house i desired for her to have, at a price i really desired:)~)
simple moments of GOds faithfulness, keeps moving me forward~

lalah at work

Tom's mom's cookies still top of the charts!

had a chocalate chip peppermint one, was fabtabulous,with the minor exception that my tooth still hurts..lol
prob shouldn't eat until i guess it fixed. Okay erase that eat junk food:( But they probally needed my business today..hehe good excuse~
R u familair with tom' mom's? well check out their website:)
http://www.tomsmomscookies.com/index.phtml

Other then that, been trying to stay busy at my ma's shop today, but seriously u can only fold jeans so many times. I tend to break out in dance every other minute, the best is when people r looking in the window~ u'de think they want to come in:)
But its neat to converse with friends around the world online. I read from my freind david, today he is in sierre Leane gosh i can't spell this> BUt anyways, he's been in missions for a while, and now finds himself in a really challenging situation~ i sorta can relate with him, going to a country(obeying GOd) an being new at everything, while at the same time being harrassed by the spiritual atmosphere, Can really bring you down.

I think this can happen anywhere though-

So whats the answer; for me having people you can share what your going thorugh with to pray with you..or Come to a place of adoring Jesus~ To take your eyes off yourself, an upon your creator the love of you,life, brings so much peace~ in the phillipines i went through this for a breif moment, i wanted to go home:( an became angry at stupid things. While all the time GOd was doing a owkr there an a work in my life~

Through the struggle an pain, and many unanswered ?'s God alowed me to experiance his love in way i've never done before!
I became to realize no matter what God is with me. He began to place very special people in my life, who loved on me an served me. An i thought i was the missionary, lol Thats where missions is wrong, its not always bout serving, but just being obediant to what Jesus says.
I injured my foot an it became almost infected there, i was out for 2wks! an those weeks r the most precios to me in all my trips an places. bc i found a place of rest, in the midst of trials an uncertain~
I couldn't move bc of pain so phiipino missionaries cam in an served me so kindly an giving! i mean they even brought me pizza hut! like what the hec! izza hut i didn't know they had this:)
I asked GOd why I was spose to come to Phillippines, He said i wast you to see the people i love. I know GOd loves every one But somehow, he desired me to see things that were on his heart~ I began to pray for the country while i was down, an prepare for my teaching 2.5wks down the road. I prayed God please let my foot heal at least enough for me to teach. the day i was spose to leave it was all better!

Praise GOd.. I went to another town an taught thessalonians to a bible school, an afterward had a chance to meet the guy who fisrt shared Jesus to me, for he was there too on a short term mission trip!
The crazy part is a couple years ago i prayed to see him, duncan fom England, to let him know it was bc of his testimony, i now come to Christ! I'm like God if thats your will please make it happen..4 yrs ago then 2 years later i'm there!!!!!
the story how i even decided to go there is even more God radicle~ includes me writing philippines an not even knowing i did, an various dreams, on saying philipines 6weeks.. lol Incredible this GOd who loves me and remembers me despite my imperfections~:)

Okay that was alot of blerbering..
So pray for David in SL~! He needs breakthrough, and prayer for Sudan, bc it needs lots of it!
I'm out~!~

God told people in the old testament ot have monuments of remembrance. They used stones, or wells and other random iteams.

I'm realizing that remembering the past it shines more that God has plans n the future! Also by learning from the past you can be more effective in the future.. at least thats what u'de think:)

anti iching cream:)

The ache, or ich
Sometimes i don't realize how much i miss my sister, but just go on each day, forgeting everything she was too me. I don't like this. I wish i'de spend more time reflecting bout the times we had. She meant so much to me when she was here. My eldest sister and a mom to me. Its weird thinking what she'd look like now, or being doing, and her journey with Jesus would look like.
I often forget how i lost my big sister, but also how my now big sister lost her big sis also.
I'm so glad that i can b there for vik this time as she's going through her 2nd kid/ pregnaucy. I know its hard not having Zandee to be there also.

The ich an ache; is what my fav pastor step called wehn your missing something an can't figure it out.. It leads to going too the world to fill it.
Most of the times it can just b u don't kknow jesus an his love, others times it can be things you've lost an desired to b back to normal.

I'm remebered tonight, of Zandee, and know this is a ich for me, i desire so much to see her again an wonder what she's say~ GOd has promised me i'de see her agian, an that she belives in my life here. I worship GOd that he is the answer to the ichs, an aches; when we come to him, he desires to fill us up in his love an words....
Thanks God for being the center of my life~!