Aloha,
Seven months have gone by too quickly, since the Lord told me to pack my bags and move from little Indian River,Michigan and move back to Kona, Hi. Barely with no money and having to leave my family and friends and cute dog whitney behind. For sure, the walk of faith can be difficult at times but can only build perseverance, character; and hope; as Paul write in romans chapter 5:4. Obeying god is not always easy or likable but so much worth it!:)

The time here has been so much fun, meeting great people and being able to serve in a a handful of different ministries.
I came expecting to work with children and youth, yet was so much more than that. It seems like everywhere God places you, there's always a opportunity to reveal him in the situation and friends you meet. I tend to find my self sharing Jesus and praying for people when ever i get the chance to, whether it be be in the community or on the mission campus. I love it and I know it's what I was born to do:)

There are many awesome stories I'de love to start blogging on from the past being here, but as of right now I'd like to share the future.
Currently still working on my youth bible project, making a simple bible study manual for youth. I tend to work with lots of kids and never have something hands on to give them after camps or teachings. After my year of bible school and outreach I found that the 7 steps of inductive bible study, on which we taught on, impacted many in indonesia, philippines outreach, and I knew that There had to be a fun simple way to get youth an kids interested. So been working on that here.

While also teaching kids and children on campus about who GOd is and what a life following him looks like. We've had great times of acting and rapping out bible stories. Times of praying for people and countries in need and just asking the Lord what he thinks about us. The Lord has always shown up during these times and leads an encouraged us.

I also have been help coaching at a public high school, while starting a new prayer movement with some others on the mission base to pray for revival in the schools. We're are kicking off a new project this fall having churches an missionaries adopting a handful of students to pray for, so that the whole student body would be covered in prayer. The school here is full of crime and is one of the top schools in USA with lowest grades, highest teen pregnacy, and big drug problem. So we are believing for huge break through coming up. A group of us recently started doing praying walks around the school on Sundays and God has really given us a heart for the students and staff there. We're claiming it for Jesus:)!

So now, the quarter is almost over here on campus, and i plan on going home for a month or so. My beautiful sista Viki is having a her third baby and can't miss out on it, as I have my money its a girl:) I'd love to help her out and just be with my mates back home, while raising prayer and finactial support for the next season in Hawaii and perhaps Sweden.

So I'm grateful for all the Lord has been teaching me and leading me through and even more excited for the future!
Thanks so much for taking your time checking out my update, and prayfully consider a donation to send me back home in April. Thank You! Hope

ps. Tsunami just did a bit of damage downtown Kona, But I was safe through it all. Had fun helping the locals do clean up~ Now just praing for Japan~

can't get to heaven in a limosine

He wore a cross today!

yeh its a necklace but man~ the story behind it is even more crazy ! yup, once again God is in the game of miracles~
In his ways~!

GOds stress.. his kingdom

I wish words would switch as i write and sound amazing.. mainly bc i'm tired but thought i'de better blog a bit..

Soap.... Alot of crazieness and maybe unneccessary stress has been overwhelming.. i know its important to know when to say yes an no and have boundaries.. Os u won't b a wreck an stressed..
But wheh the Lord puts you in a situation in which can be stressful; stress takes on a naohter meaing when given to the Lord. It becomes sweat, hope, intercession, and expounding within each second..
this randomly brings me back to a monet in which i had forgotten...
About 2 an yrs ago the Lord had me do a extended outreach in the Phillippines. My team left me in Indonesia and the next day i was off to my next journey and with excitedment for Gods will to unfold to me. I knew there was a great reason he kept showing me the Phillipines.... well, i could add why and all the heart shaking things that happened. But i''l stop there and go straight to this moment,...
Serving with the ywam there;( they have over 24 bases just in the philippines bc of al the isldans an place) I was doing all sorts of ministy. And they all mostly were in the most poor places. The place was called Smokey Mountain... Why because it was built on heaps an heaps of mountais of trash. In which burned during the day bc of the heat. It reaked, was full of pollution, SOOOOO hot and humid at times. I praised God i brought my bandanas, bc all of our transportation was in dust of bursts of pollution everywhere. My skin became dark, and i wore 50spf, so it wasn't bc of the sun. But bc of the dirtieness. I'm not complaining, but just describing how i was for me. the situation was extremely hard for me. I could barely breath.
any how i began to minister beside the most humble people i've ever think i've met before. These people give their life go to help the poorest of poor. Bring them medical attention, doing children feeding and bible teaching programs. Working with families, a awesome teenaer ministry, evangelism is a everyday thought in theri lives. Whether its sharing the about the Lord, or just sharing his love in actions.. its endless. The people love; yes its hard for them; but they come to their level and learn and hear the people. they understand their situations, and fins ways for them to move forward...
I mean they help the high schoolers so they can go to collages and even ask people from around the world to help fund them in school, so they can come out of the cycle of poverty.
Its great, but every night or day i would cry. I was sad for my brother and sisters living in such strained situations...

I would walk the trash streets where somebody seemed like they had nthing and depended on their family or community to live. they loved deep, and looked out for each other..
What i'm getting at is, among what i saw as poverty and stress and the hardest time of my life. I began to pray and ask God to help me understand why i was here. What he wanted to show me, to give and show me his heart.
One morning he spoke these words to me; I want you see the people i love, i want you to see them love...

Everything changed all whiched seemed like barriors dissapeared. My heart became red, and i knew that this hardship was no longer my focus, but loving and knowing his people here was key~

Now back to my stress now.. What i'm doing is super ahrd but; i believe God has a greater purpose. Many great things have been happening.... So all i can say this moment is stress for the Lord has greater fruti then what we expect..
I have to go. but next would love to share on desires of the heart:) bless yah all!

Gods compassion burning deep

I've never learned and experainced compassion like i have in the past weeks. I have to realize the Lord has shown me, so much compassion whether i can see it, or not. But wow what a day to day struggle to give an give and show compassion~
Gods compassion is so intense, so enormous, so out of this world!!
It has destroyed all my bounds of lines of structured love~ Its taken me to the thee level.

I'm so grateful to experiance this, bc i get a taste of what it meant for God to give an show me compassion~

Pretty much awe struck! I never thought ide find this lesson here in my home town~ I never thought how one kid can change me!

Wait did i say one kid, no i mean may kids!
I've broken my stereo type's my false opinions, my lack of understanding~

I am another person, no longer the same i feel, like someone just gave me binoculars into another world i looked way over.

I wish i could share what has been going on, but its so much an so long! but i can say is i can never speak with out understanding first, i can never ignore the different, I can never say or even think I'm more than one other person.

I've found this sence of humanity, a place of broken dreams where miracles still exists~

a place where tomorrow; doen't matter if i can't get through today~

A place where one person can change the life of another ..literally!

Lord please give me more compassion on those whom you've placed in front of me~
Help me befriend those who the world cast away, help love in purity:) help me show your love God!

Your compassion over whelms me~ I can do nothing but stand in awe of just this one characteristic of You~

I'm afraid of it at the same time, only bc i realize your compassion for me...Father it doens't end.....
How Can my Lord be so compassionate~! His love is like the waters overflowing breaking through any desert and tearing down any strong tree. It melts the coldest glacier, and burns the hollowest heart!
Oh Lord awaken love, awaken our heart to feel, to hear to know how u feel about us~ Lord only you can teach us to show true compassion~ Help me more an more.. Compassion is hearing within your heart

here with a daisy

The field lies waiting for the twirl of dancing skirts and the sounds of blues. The twist of thought challenges the atmostphere, shall we dance here?

Take off my shades, for the trees don't speak, wandering here i may seek.
Though no tresspassing among path, no other place do i have.

Does the watercolor explain  this fray, does the light always just pass so fast today?

where art though promies where art thy word, where is the picture i thought had formed?

Will you embrace this rivers flow? Do you see you have a role? Inspite inspite, oh remove that tear, remeber how thy slithers through this hemiphere? So do I yet will remain, to challenge that picture not invain.

Laugh do laugh i slumber nay, Fathers love remains all day~

Take off thou scarlet thread its not your to contend, a harlets throb of fear, why contain? This path is yours do not refrain.

I've given dozens of roses but will not do; a daisy can only explain my love for you!

 Foot prints dissapear, while this daisy holding here. Can the field say good bye, will the watercolor become dry?

Just a kid where to go I met God here, he took control:)

random thoughts all mixed like a frapachino:)

So been a tuff crazy couple weeks, been good, becuase God works with me:)
I googled twitch today..lol but seriously, i'm stressed out an twitch at least 3times aday, uncontrolable...haha i think this is weird but funny. I'l be like oh sorry about that eye wiggle:) Some eye expert website, says its from stress caffiene, loss of sleep, an some other ones that i can't relate to. But Realize i need to chill, or i might have to get botox to relax my eye muscles.haha yea right~!


So Great things have been happening right now in areas where i have been praying for, its really neat to see things sorta come together... well, at least for others around me. There are people god has laid on my heart to pray for and beginning to see breakthrough in their lives. So thats always neat. But its not like thte fantastic usage of neat, but more like super challenginf times for these people but their moving forward. Thats great.. Gods such a faithful Father, I can see more of it day by day. I love that he excepts his children right where they are an loves them no matter what.

I guess i can't imagine what GOd the father must feel everyday, seeing so much junk goin on in the world, but i can't stop to think He the man:)
I have a sorta new job for this na maybe next week, but i already want to quit, which is totally unlike me:0?
I tend to be happy with what ever work I believe the Lord leads me to do. But seriously this job is redicuous...I can't really say much about it, but i was so upset that all could do today was complain!!!

Why because it has to do with working with a young teenager who needs help, not just a change of behavior but despite that, has some deep trama in his life which is leading him to act the way he is in school~

Why so much in life does the world tend to push problems under the carpet and paint flowerly pictures on the wall? Its a load of crud i say. Why, oh why can't people genuinely take the time to invest in someones future instead of hope for the present pretty picture of a behavior change. Which eventually wil come out agina, and more likey be more serious.

I'm very mad at this and how We over look peoples problems. I think Jesus hit the target, when he show the way when it was wriiten in Isaiah....
Isaiah 61

The Year of the LORD's Favor

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, [a]
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,

3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.

I mean hello.....
It wasn't tell people how to stop acting like dumb butts.. I mean if it was about that we'd still be living in the oldtestament right~
But now its so a heart thing, an for those who are in need of a helper, GOd wanted to restore the hurting people He created and loved.
SO my point that i really have to blogg to help me sleep tonight is....Why the heck focus on changing some ones behavior when inside they have no hope, are hurt, and want to die. How the heck will this solve anything...

So my case rest hopefully not fo to long as tomorrow i will pick it up again and confront the leadship over me.. this will b interesting, but I'm sure God will give me the words to say, and if i'm not heard... I still will do my job above their standards and love the broken hinding behind a mask of war& fear..
The end...

BTW
i'm pet sitting a turtle this moment an sorta freaks me out, oh an a dog that rolled in a dead deer carcass..I'm bummed i didn't 'do' anything outside after work bc it as beautiful out, I really want to train for a half marathon in June, but having a hard time to run outside alone again. I guess i need to get a gym membership or something bc i miss running, but hate the fact i don't feel safe running out there alone... unless it downtown, but then i feel like a dork running back and forth..hah oh the joys of living in a fallen world.not

Go small or go home:)

So........why do small things seem to make such a influence?

Well, maybe bc we overate small for big.. What determines something to b small or big.lol

I guess i'm just saying small things can change peoples lives... Small things can stop war, small things can be big. Its not about the size lol this is sounding great but really the act . To remove your self from passivity to even try to be obediant. Is big!
To love is big, to forgive is big, to obey is big, to laugh is big, to pray is big, to praise is big... an the story goes on.. When your talking about a enormously big an amazing God, what an anything you do or say to him is big~! bc He sees you as a big deal~

I love this. I love even the silence. the waiting the realizing him. the surrender! The trust. Where i may b tomorrow, is totally up to him... and its okay bc its part of his BIG plan:)

Lord help me be found faithful when you call me:)