So been a tuff crazy couple weeks, been good, becuase God works with me:)
I googled twitch today..lol but seriously, i'm stressed out an twitch at least 3times aday, uncontrolable...haha i think this is weird but funny. I'l be like oh sorry about that eye wiggle:) Some eye expert website, says its from stress caffiene, loss of sleep, an some other ones that i can't relate to. But Realize i need to chill, or i might have to get botox to relax my eye muscles.haha yea right~!
So Great things have been happening right now in areas where i have been praying for, its really neat to see things sorta come together... well, at least for others around me. There are people god has laid on my heart to pray for and beginning to see breakthrough in their lives. So thats always neat. But its not like thte fantastic usage of neat, but more like super challenginf times for these people but their moving forward. Thats great.. Gods such a faithful Father, I can see more of it day by day. I love that he excepts his children right where they are an loves them no matter what.
I guess i can't imagine what GOd the father must feel everyday, seeing so much junk goin on in the world, but i can't stop to think He the man:)
I have a sorta new job for this na maybe next week, but i already want to quit, which is totally unlike me:0?
I tend to be happy with what ever work I believe the Lord leads me to do. But seriously this job is redicuous...I can't really say much about it, but i was so upset that all could do today was complain!!!
Why because it has to do with working with a young teenager who needs help, not just a change of behavior but despite that, has some deep trama in his life which is leading him to act the way he is in school~
Why so much in life does the world tend to push problems under the carpet and paint flowerly pictures on the wall? Its a load of crud i say. Why, oh why can't people genuinely take the time to invest in someones future instead of hope for the present pretty picture of a behavior change. Which eventually wil come out agina, and more likey be more serious.
I'm very mad at this and how We over look peoples problems. I think Jesus hit the target, when he show the way when it was wriiten in Isaiah....
Isaiah 61
The Year of the LORD's Favor
1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, [a]
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.
I mean hello.....
It wasn't tell people how to stop acting like dumb butts.. I mean if it was about that we'd still be living in the oldtestament right~
But now its so a heart thing, an for those who are in need of a helper, GOd wanted to restore the hurting people He created and loved.
SO my point that i really have to blogg to help me sleep tonight is....Why the heck focus on changing some ones behavior when inside they have no hope, are hurt, and want to die. How the heck will this solve anything...
So my case rest hopefully not fo to long as tomorrow i will pick it up again and confront the leadship over me.. this will b interesting, but I'm sure God will give me the words to say, and if i'm not heard... I still will do my job above their standards and love the broken hinding behind a mask of war& fear..
The end...
BTW
i'm pet sitting a turtle this moment an sorta freaks me out, oh an a dog that rolled in a dead deer carcass..I'm bummed i didn't 'do' anything outside after work bc it as beautiful out, I really want to train for a half marathon in June, but having a hard time to run outside alone again. I guess i need to get a gym membership or something bc i miss running, but hate the fact i don't feel safe running out there alone... unless it downtown, but then i feel like a dork running back and forth..hah oh the joys of living in a fallen world.not
