GOds stress.. his kingdom

I wish words would switch as i write and sound amazing.. mainly bc i'm tired but thought i'de better blog a bit..

Soap.... Alot of crazieness and maybe unneccessary stress has been overwhelming.. i know its important to know when to say yes an no and have boundaries.. Os u won't b a wreck an stressed..
But wheh the Lord puts you in a situation in which can be stressful; stress takes on a naohter meaing when given to the Lord. It becomes sweat, hope, intercession, and expounding within each second..
this randomly brings me back to a monet in which i had forgotten...
About 2 an yrs ago the Lord had me do a extended outreach in the Phillippines. My team left me in Indonesia and the next day i was off to my next journey and with excitedment for Gods will to unfold to me. I knew there was a great reason he kept showing me the Phillipines.... well, i could add why and all the heart shaking things that happened. But i''l stop there and go straight to this moment,...
Serving with the ywam there;( they have over 24 bases just in the philippines bc of al the isldans an place) I was doing all sorts of ministy. And they all mostly were in the most poor places. The place was called Smokey Mountain... Why because it was built on heaps an heaps of mountais of trash. In which burned during the day bc of the heat. It reaked, was full of pollution, SOOOOO hot and humid at times. I praised God i brought my bandanas, bc all of our transportation was in dust of bursts of pollution everywhere. My skin became dark, and i wore 50spf, so it wasn't bc of the sun. But bc of the dirtieness. I'm not complaining, but just describing how i was for me. the situation was extremely hard for me. I could barely breath.
any how i began to minister beside the most humble people i've ever think i've met before. These people give their life go to help the poorest of poor. Bring them medical attention, doing children feeding and bible teaching programs. Working with families, a awesome teenaer ministry, evangelism is a everyday thought in theri lives. Whether its sharing the about the Lord, or just sharing his love in actions.. its endless. The people love; yes its hard for them; but they come to their level and learn and hear the people. they understand their situations, and fins ways for them to move forward...
I mean they help the high schoolers so they can go to collages and even ask people from around the world to help fund them in school, so they can come out of the cycle of poverty.
Its great, but every night or day i would cry. I was sad for my brother and sisters living in such strained situations...

I would walk the trash streets where somebody seemed like they had nthing and depended on their family or community to live. they loved deep, and looked out for each other..
What i'm getting at is, among what i saw as poverty and stress and the hardest time of my life. I began to pray and ask God to help me understand why i was here. What he wanted to show me, to give and show me his heart.
One morning he spoke these words to me; I want you see the people i love, i want you to see them love...

Everything changed all whiched seemed like barriors dissapeared. My heart became red, and i knew that this hardship was no longer my focus, but loving and knowing his people here was key~

Now back to my stress now.. What i'm doing is super ahrd but; i believe God has a greater purpose. Many great things have been happening.... So all i can say this moment is stress for the Lord has greater fruti then what we expect..
I have to go. but next would love to share on desires of the heart:) bless yah all!