Surrender~

oh why oh why do i forget sometimes that i've surrendered my life to Jesus~!:)

Seriously though, like thats a pretty important thing to remember daily right. I'm no longer mine own, by he is the new captain of this ship~

Again was hit with my never ending trust issues... i need to get over like a leader use to say alot, just get over it.

But while in a rush to get to the bank, but going to stop for a cup of joe real quick..... I ran into a old freind who i met through my mom. She owned a store next to my moms. NAyways. She'd always talk bout new agey things, an be reading the newest self help from budda books:)
I never mentioned my faith to her, or rebuked her for her search.. Bu one day she said there was something different about me. That when she was with me she felt at peace...

I was so excited when she said this, becuase i was praying for a moment to share Jesus to her, for she was going through a togh time. she knew i was a chritain an missionary, but not by me sayin it but my mom:)
nay how the whole summer after she alowed me to tell her about Jesus and the peace an healing and hope he brings, We would talk an share the crazieness that life threw at us.. I then was off to missions again. Leaving at a place where she now was church searching an trying to connect with those who arn't everyday hard drinkers an materialistic, like her past was..

anyways; i never have seen her for a couple years. And ran into to her!!!!!

For the first time she was totally different, i saw a face change, a new vibe from her, like not worried or frantic. But peace~
She said oh tedi....(even though my name was changed..) she said, 2 years ago i gave my life over to christ! For 2 years i havn't touch alcohol! I surrendered my life to Jesus, and i've never felt so good in my life!

I was stoked, how the holy spirit had led her to truth an love and forgiveness, i could have cried but bc i was in a hurry i played it safe. i think. think i'll cry later.lol
But this just really spoke to me bout surrender!;ok katies here were watching funny people..

Adious. Merry christmas.lol

more then the expected!

DREAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

this year a dream was fulfilled, with in that dream more began to develop.


Now am seeing how a dream can grow into a vision

I'm so thankful for God who works on my behalf~!~

even though theres lots oof waiting an patiance, when the time is right, the vision falls to place!

Praise GOd!

yesus christos

So sometimes.... doesn't aways make sence
But if it did, i wonder if i would depend so much on faith..:)

So where trusting God on a invisible path, means letting go of al preconceived ideas of trust in which led to being broken~
Learning to trust agian~hm
trust God.. even a bigger hm:)

But i guess it makes so much sence, while it looks so twirly:)

My God always present an does't leave when things get tough, in fact draws closer:)

My God has everything to do with my life; even when i feel like i'm in control:)

My God walks with me to dark places, showing me where the need is for light.

My GOd, must get frusterated sometimes, but instead of me complaining about it. He offers grace and hopes for peace~

My GOd talks to people an invites them to partake in a incredible adventure of faith, even while i may not read it like a novel, i see his purpose in each tear he shed on the cross~

My God He's good, and believe his love will outshine anything.

I'm so grateful to know Him, and pray i'de trust him more an more:)

come to the water u who thirst an u'll thirst no more:)

Isaiah 55 >>
NIV
Invitation to the Thirsty

1“Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
3Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
4See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a leader and commander of the peoples.
5Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations that do not know you will hasten to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor.”
6Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
7Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
8“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD.
9“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD’s renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed.”

God r u enough?

The Lords been challenging me is He enough? Going to focus in on this for a while. Believe alot of things can discourage me an other beiivers, but coming back to a place, of saying GOd you are more then enough. Is a place of victory~!
Luke 5

The Calling of the First Disciples

1One day as Jesus was standing by the Lake of Gennesaret,a with the people crowding around him and listening to the word of God, 2he saw at the water’s edge two boats, left there by the fishermen, who were washing their nets. 3He got into one of the boats, the one belonging to Simon, and asked him to put out a little from shore. Then he sat down and taught the people from the boat.

4When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let downb the nets for a catch.”

5Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.”

6When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break. 7So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink.

8When Simon Peter saw this, he fell at Jesus’ knees and said, “Go away from me, Lord; I am a sinful man!” 9For he and all his companions were astonished at the catch of fish they had taken, 10and so were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, Simon’s partners.

Then Jesus said to Simon, “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will catch men.” 11So they pulled their boats up on shore, left everything and followed him

God showed Peter life with him; would be more then enough!

Pressure~!~!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i doubled that exclamation.. hold on a little more then that!

So today at church Pastor talked a bit bout this. how Jesus sometimes was in pressure situations an how he always responded with answers that were full of faith an of the Father. How he didn't rush any where. How he didn't necessirily care how everyone like him. Or what they thought. He had enemies who dind't approve, an followers who strongly approved-

With that, I totally have came to this place again... an it seems like i come here at least once a month..
Pressure, i tend to pressure my self way to much
i tend to recieve other peoples pressure way to much
I tend to act by pressure instead of wisdom-

Think i'm being a tad dramatic.. i'm not that crazy but just had this moment of what the hec... My life is mine, an i will live not by others standards or opions or approval, but Gods.

I've lived this many times an think i do good at it, but am glad they spoke on it today, bc it was almost hedging its way back in my heart........ The world is like spinning(truth), and i'm to live in it an not get dizzy! lol how do u do this?
Well its knowing your mission, and knowing who your following:) and who's your team:)

My calling has nothing to do with making people feel good or me feeling good. But being more an more like Christ to the world- which in that alone, means obediant- And confident in who i am. I'm not to be like others but like Christ. and when i talk to GOd bout this he tells me He wants me to have heart like his, but to be the women He's created me to be. It won't ever be Christ an may not even look like who he was or did. But being myself in the midst of a world that tries to tell u who u r to be, an if u make it or mis it~

Pressure...............
their were times when i've failed............to the world yes.......... to God noooo!

Pressure.....
being a freind when it means not being there for them

Pressure.......
Not being on time when the appointment says 1, an u have probllem at home that needs care-

Pressure.......
a neighbor needs a lift and your already late for work

Pressure...........
the class wants it this way, when u have already desided how it was going to be

Pressure............
Praying for a random person, while not knowing what they'll think, or if praying for a healing, it would b healed

Pressure........
Going into news place an new people, and being labeled by the shoes u wear, or the way you laugh, or the stupid things u wish u did or dind't say

Pressure........
Parents releying on you to be something that you were never to be

Pressure.............
new cars, new diomond rings...................

Pressure.................
A feeling of impact on my mind which tells me i have to act immedietly~
BUT because i trust in God, i don't need to believe fast dramatic lies which will try to drain me and hinder what my real mission is.Or what currently i'm to do........
Instead of the pressure, i have to wait on him in prayer. Where his will is my vision, an my vision collides in his will.

Hm randoms for the night.............theres good pressure an bad pressure, learing to act where the peace is, an trust despite the effects

in his garden..love it!

What the Lord was speaking to me early today~
ps 92:12
The godly shall flourish like palm trees, and grow tall as cedars of Lebanon.
For they are transplanted into the lords own garden, and are under his personal
care. Even in old age they will still produce fruit an b ital an green. This honors
the Lord and exibits his fithful care, He is my shelter. Theres nothin but goodness in him!

So its late an i can't sleep, i have a million an one songs in my head to write but to tired to jot down, an seriosly illiteret when it comes to tuning my guitar!!!!!ger

I'm at place of being dependant on GOd. Even though i think i've been for a very long time. I'm realizing more an more how, when i'm at this place.. I'm really happy:) I realize that each day makes sence- An if i doesn't, it does in his eyes..lol

I listen to a song today, an old song we use to sing in art class an pertend we thought enrique eiglasious was hot..lol
I can be your hero baby song...An it clicked to me, How this is GOds whisper in our ears daily. i can be your hero!
Its awesome to think that this amazing GOd. Wants or even desires to be there for me when i can't do it on my own.
I'm so glad he understands me, an puts me in place of waiting trusting an desiring him. Because i would not understand him-
He's in control, and i love it! its that simple...
In my heart i'm feriated at so much injustice an pain in the world. But when i remember the crss, an the suffering Jesus went through it remeinds me.. this life is not what its all about...
GOd is love an GOd is just

By the way. My nephew is amazing i babysat him today an i just fall more an more in love wiht him. I'm so thankful for the time GOd is giving me to get to know an see this little bugger... tried to teach him how to line dance today. was adorable. He then pulled out his fake revolver an began shooting.. My sister an dave, have come a long way. i'm so proud of them, an really glad they are good parents who desire the best for their children. ..
okay i think i can sleep now.. weird how tping makes me tired.. lol

bobble~

2 peter 1:5-6
"Do your best to ADD to holy living to your faith. Then add to this better understanding. As you have better undertanding be able to say no when you need to.Do not give up but as you wait, an not give up, live God- like."

The alabaster jar:)

Something GOd was really showing me today..........
The heart behind her actions.....


Mathew 26:6 While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of a man known as Simon the Leper, 7a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the table.

8When the disciples saw this, they were indignant. “Why this waste?” they asked. 9“This perfume could have been sold at a high price and the money given to the poor.”

10Aware of this, Jesus said to them, “Why are you bothering this woman? She has done a beautiful thing to me. 11The poor you will always have with you, but you will not always have me. 12When she poured this perfume on my body, she did it to prepare me for burial. 13I tell you the truth, wherever this gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her.”

I desire to be this women of faith an love...And feel like GOd is saying it okay to be this women, more then okay:)
Sometimes i feel as though i don't have alot, not that i need alot but sometimes the world around u keep tellin u need to be more, have more, do more, ect. But some how this women knew that Jesus, was worth giving her most expensive possession:)

When i think about my most expensive possesion, i really think about my time, dreams, desires and so on. Nothing i own i look at as expensive,bc alot of it had been GOds gift>while looking simply'er- I really want to let my life be a daily me pouring that oil for an on Jesus. That serving him an his heart would be top priority~.. I know is hard sometimes... But i fear that if i took the easier route. The end would be empty. Left of black trails, where the dreams of god, bc a left over platter where critters creep to eat, but never recieve the fullness
God dreams of intimacy, with each one of his children...an it may mean laying it all down b4 him~

Soap. I led worship tonight...

all i gotta say is i'm glad its over... Ger thats a bad heart right..

But the stupid tuner didn't work properly, so my guitar (a)string was way out of tune, i tried my best to tune it. But couldn't get it right. How frusterating! And the lady who always help me tune was gone... Ger. Gotta love it!

So it despite me being very critical of my self- it was awsome night of worship...& We prayed for our country a bunch an other issues pertaining to it. God gave me the story of Jonah. How He was called to go tell Ninavah to repent, but dind't bc of bitterness in his heart towards them. Eventually after pretty much being stuck in a big fish, or some say whale, he repented an said he would go. When he went the king of Ninevah, proclaimed a fast, an all were repenting, bc of this God changed his mind an desided not to destroy the people. 

Poor jonah was mad when God did this... Perhaps maybe the ninevites also known as the assyrians, known for their brutal ways of killing people in wars, an worhsip of false GOds. Killed someone he knew, what ever jonah was mad about, It couldn't compare with GOd love for these people. . After ninevah repented, Jonah said(jonah 4:2), "That is why i ran away from tarnish, i knew that you are a kind and loving GOd, who shows pity. I knew that you are slow to anger, and filled with loving kindness, always ready to change your mind and not punish..":)

So applying this story to America,.. to our govermant, leaders, and people within this nation. that we would turn from sin, an repent so God, can bless, and cover our country. 

that Gods mercy would be reconized and not walked over:)

we also prayed for the soldeirs over sea's an here in the USA. FOr wisdom, an encouragement!

Also for churches an leaders, youth an leaders, that god would rise up people with his heart towards them, and creativity reaching them. 

Then we started spinning into GOds love, god really was showing me his heart for his beloved.. Ho much he loves us. How he's captured by us,.just like in song of solomon, How just a glance of our eyes he's overwhelmed! WOw, GOd really is the answer for humankind, only his love can fill our heart. so that we can say its more then enough. That Jesus see's the small moves in our heart and it pleases him:) I feel like there are alot of people who can't except Gods love, They don't feel like their good enough or well what ever it is. Its such a lie.. It makes me mad, GOd loves us.despite everything! He forgives us Despite everything.... I really still pray even now, that people would come to know gOds love to the fullest measure, how he is our father who loves an loves, and cares and cares. ANd won't let u do anything, or give u anything u can't handle- He is so good. I want to know my Father GOd so much more an more. He's so special to me~ I can't grasp it all. it overwhelms me<>

    And i feel like after i say that too God  He says , its not just about work, but truely cares for me and my best. He doesn't want me to settle, that i'm not worthy or good enough, but wants me to truely see who i am in his eyes. WOW, open the eyes of my heart God!!!Its not what i do or how he uses me but that I'm loved by GOd, an accepted and will never be alone.

...Okay so i'm taking it a day at a time... an moments of remembering his love are priceless!

chicken fingers an honey is good:)

Today went by so flipping fast.... ger i need some more hours..

the highlight.... . . .   . Some one i love dearly taking a step towards help-

I thought it was impossible.. i thought what seemed like a endless circle an cycle, would never break or given concern towards..

Today was a day,,.. in which u wonder if all your prayer has finally helped....

I love my parents, more then my self sometimes. but can't show them the love in which a normal child could. Though i'm a adult yes.. There is still a freindship that lasts in normal parent to daughter growing up relationship.. I sometimes yearn for this. But they have an have alwasy been unable to b that figure:( And when so, the next minute everything could change.. I guess this is dysfunction. Why i'm bloggin this.. Bc i believe GOd is going to heal them! an d heal my relationship.. I've been praying most of my life for this. And am not getting my ambitions up too much. But during the last 6 wks, our pastor has been preaching a sermon series on boundreis an relationships. During this time, it was hard to listen an bc there was not only always dysfunction when growing up but still now, in my parents life. 

      I've now have detached myself from them. For loves sake... Its super hard...I want to b there for them and share in life. BUt i realize, until someone makes a move away from it an calls it as it is. They might never get the point and help they need.  The present satifation of comfort of a parent or freind is good but when it becomes unpredictable what will happen when u go there, and may cause u to b wounded may not b wise. The only thing i know what to do is become invisible to them. I use to think it was just my dad and his anger, but now see how my mom my whole life alowed it.

         This breaks my heart, or has broken my heart. To see someone u dearly love be so comfortable an stuck in dysfunction. Is tough.

      But I praise God:) he has always been my rock through it all, an while he has taken me away 5 years in missions, also taught me much an He personaly healed me much. I know i'm not perfect an still hang by a thread sometimes, but know God doesn't ignore the cry of the afficted, and I'm lving proof of it~ He answers prayers in way i can't even imagine! He allows me to make decisions an teaches me from them.

       I'm in awe of GOd, and his redemption in my life. Whether he chooses to continuely heal my family too,  I myself will allow the potter to mold me into the image he once intended me to be:) And pray will God will release his healing in miraculous ways in my family and families all around the world, for his glory!

Proverbs 2:)

My son, if you accept my words

and store up my commands within you,

2turning your ear to wisdom

and applying your heart to understanding,

3and if you call out for insight

and cry aloud for understanding,

4and if you look for it as for silver

and search for it as for hidden treasure,

5then you will understand the fear of the LORD

and find the knowledge of God.

6For the LORD gives wisdom,

and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

7He holds victory in store for the upright,

he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,

8for he guards the course of the just

and protects the way of his faithful ones.

9Then you will understand what is right and just

and fair—every good path.

10For wisdom will enter your heart,

and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.

11Discretion will protect you,

and understanding will guard you.

12Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men,

from men whose words are perverse,

13who leave the straight paths

to walk in dark ways,

14who delight in doing wrong

and rejoice in the perverseness of evil,

15whose paths are crooked

and who are devious in their ways.

16It will save you also from the adulteress,

from the wayward wife with her seductive words,

17who has left the partner of her youth

and ignored the covenant she made before God.^a

18For her house leads down to death

and her paths to the spirits of the dead.

19None who go to her return

or attain the paths of life.

20Thus you will walk in the ways of good men

and keep to the paths of the righteous.

21For the upright will live in the land,

and the blameless will remain in it;

22but the wicked will be cut off from the land,

and the unfaithful will be torn from it

This is whats been cooking- I love God an that he alone wants to show us his ways an direction:) In Christ alone, we can do all things:)

        Still another day, serving the Lord and i'm more an more fathoming his love. How he is slowly but surely moving in my family's life, an mostly taking me to his mountains and showing me the view! 

tomorrow i lead worship for Prayer house, an as i prepare i realize how much God just desires to be with us, an spend  time with us~

I'm so thankful for God.

Not sure whats up? But my head feels like it splitting open!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today. was a huge day for me. I felt like i was walking on fire. Not bc i was tripping on any drug..lol or hav ever done that, but Jesus walked on water an then walked through fire,( in the oldtestament with the three guys thrown in hot fire. )

           Why... becuase they wouldn't bow down to any other God.

I feel like that today I'm willing to b different. Even if it means walking against tradition or comfort. I felt like this was a big step for me. an a piece of who i really am coming into play. I think Gods is taking me to different level of faith lately, its amazing while very challenging. 

I love jesus more an more each day! an hoping for even more of him an his grace to be poured over my heart. 

I have given GOd my life.... 

I love it more an more.. He is so good at taking care of it! And teaching me his ways in unique situation.. sorta funny..I also love Gods humor, He makes me laugh so hard sometimes.. 

           Okay welp just a drip of whats Gods doing right now.. though it seems like i'm driving down a road with a blindfold on.. He's the one telling me left or right an i love it!

random boggle on Gods love+ prayer

This song is so stuck in my head lately...It's by Hillsong united!

Our GOd He lives for ever , he reigns with power an love, let earth bow down before him, He is exalted! We look to Yahweh...Yaweh, forever Yaweh....... 

    

Our hope is GOd almighty his love is greater then all, Lift high the GOd of heavens, Give all the honor, We look to yaweh, Our hope is in Yaweh..

And he shall reighn for ever, he shall reighn forever an ever...

We look to Yaweh Yaweh, forever Yahew.....

I love that the GOd of yesterdy an today is the same. The GOd who created man, breathed into man, delivered man, and loves man, is the same one i worship today. I have a ring i arabic it reminds me of the GOd i serve an love.  IT says i'm my beloved an he is mine. I can't grasp this love of GOd! He chooses me to be his:) He would give up everything for me to know him an his love. ITs quite spectacular, i'de say. And he deosn;t leave me in this obseesed love stae.lol but draws me deeper in the thing of his heart an mind. He shows me his world, his children, his other beloved whom need him. . . I understand this alot.. I understnad the place of not knowing fully who i am an who GOd is. Growing up with a abusive father; I've had moments of believing i'm not worthy of love, or ask questions to GOd about where is this love. being at a place of hatred of self.... Yeh but this all changed when the revelation of GOds love came. All the lies were being expelled. Its like Jesus took a axe an broke them off. I began to undercover truth as i became dyer hungry for god word, reading night on morning on. Despite whatever would happen through out the day, Gods word was present an so was he. I could hear GOds voice in the scriptues they whispered to me. 

         Whie knowing a bit of his crazy love...... I'm become in love with the lost, or those who don't know GOd an his love an forgiveness. Or Keep thinking bout those who don't have a chance to meet him. I've heard many times of the child prostitutes around the world. Put in cages an treated like animals. a price for a night or a hour. Children we're talking bout, from 3 -19!!!  I then think about of GOds love for them; How GOds heart must be breakng for them... I know people whom work for this area in thailand an china, an fiji. They say its one of the hardest things to see, an while their are rescure missions an other divine intervention, but when u can't do anything that hurts the most. I've never been at that place of being used like that, but i wonder what it must be like to be so utterly hopeless. I pray Jesus will bring Justice an love there. THe GOd of Jacob of Moses the Living GOd to move in these area of injustices, i pray GOd would rise up, people who would be willing to Go and show love, to be love, to act love. . I listened to a dvd a couple days ago bout a just mission connected with IHOP, Called Exodus cry, while he was talking bout all the injustice in the world an what people are doing what theri doing, he told a story, of a young missionary, reaching out to the prostitutes in Thailand. He went ot the redlight districk and pertended to be a client. When he was put in a room with a girl. She asked him if he was American, He said yes. She said we have many here.. Then She saw his cross necklace, she said are you a christian? He said.. sorta hesently yes. She's like we get many here!

                  Crazy i thought.. the guy began to share the truth behind Christ an why he came their. . Christ cam to forgive us for all unrighteousness, and let us be in union with God. God is loving an doesn't approve in what these people are doing... While then he shared more, he talked the young lady about a mission they are doing helping young prostitutes out of the area an giving them a chance of freedom. .. Things like this are going on all the time, an praying for them, is just as much useful as actually going there. Prayer is the foundation of who we are in christ. God says his house is to be a house of prayer. Our we GOds house, Does he live in us, then intercession must be first.. Ger, not sure why i'm sharin this but its so on my heart that the body of Christ would draw in the place of prayer an intercession, whther 10 minutes or an hour. It has changes my out look on life, GOd an other people. I love it.. I love GOd choses me to be part of his amazing Soverighn plan!!!!!!!!!AWesome More JEsue! Come and release your love to the nations to indian river, to northern michigan.. Release the poverty thats sarting to happen bc of the economy, an show us your favor:)

Gosh.. ever want out?

Sometimes the days just don't make sence... Its like i'm running up a endless hill an there no down sprint....Not to be a depressing bloger.. but sometimes i want ever thing to be perfectly laid out..I want answers, healing, revelation and something with purpose. When i bargan for life in prayer............ saying i'll give mine.:)

Lol maybe this it...Maybe what i'm looking an hope for is right in front of my eyes. What if this on going what seems as a up hill battle, is just what the Lord has for me.. Why not be tested, chasened, taught patiance, endurance and love...

Despite all that is bubbling in my mind... i'm remembered by a piece of GOds faithfulness, which reminds me he is still God..

Okay so i've been wanting to go to this youth christain conferance an acuualy was told by many i should speak at it, but never worked out. Any how every time i thought about it i felt like God didn't want me to buy a ticket, or even mention it to anyone. Then the youth leading now at my church asked me to come along, but still was like, nope GOd was saying no.. SO i was like okay,, so maybe i'm not to go, or something else will happen..

This morning i recieved a call fro a lady in my church in whom sometimes takes care of a cute little girl, whom i've sorta began being a big sisiter too. This girl is now singing in my church, once in awhile an loves God, but faced with trouble alot too. ANy how the lady called to say she's won 4 tickets to this confreance an if i can could i take her an invite some other people to go..!!!

         How great! God is thinking- bout what he thinks is best.. i love it an love him!

 My freind dana is now coming over... We're going to have a bible study, worship an prayer.. So excited she's never een here yet. She was going to come to the prayer house tonight, but when i showed up they decided on sharing with others the reason why they r having a prayer house. I felt i needed more time to hear form Jesus so decided to leave. They were a little upset, bc i'm on the worship team.. But i can't please people.... I have to please GOd. And i know he wants time my time right now.. I'll meet with the prayer house leader tomorrow, so its fine..

   Okay.. despite junk- there joy, despite fear- theres love- despite what seems like sorrow- there is promise of another day.. Thank u lord for the beginning an the end. Time an time again. I'm stunned by u an our ways.. Come breathe on this heart of mine, an bring life!

Praise GOd that he Reigns!