Gosh.. ever want out?

Sometimes the days just don't make sence... Its like i'm running up a endless hill an there no down sprint....Not to be a depressing bloger.. but sometimes i want ever thing to be perfectly laid out..I want answers, healing, revelation and something with purpose. When i bargan for life in prayer............ saying i'll give mine.:)

Lol maybe this it...Maybe what i'm looking an hope for is right in front of my eyes. What if this on going what seems as a up hill battle, is just what the Lord has for me.. Why not be tested, chasened, taught patiance, endurance and love...

Despite all that is bubbling in my mind... i'm remembered by a piece of GOds faithfulness, which reminds me he is still God..

Okay so i've been wanting to go to this youth christain conferance an acuualy was told by many i should speak at it, but never worked out. Any how every time i thought about it i felt like God didn't want me to buy a ticket, or even mention it to anyone. Then the youth leading now at my church asked me to come along, but still was like, nope GOd was saying no.. SO i was like okay,, so maybe i'm not to go, or something else will happen..

This morning i recieved a call fro a lady in my church in whom sometimes takes care of a cute little girl, whom i've sorta began being a big sisiter too. This girl is now singing in my church, once in awhile an loves God, but faced with trouble alot too. ANy how the lady called to say she's won 4 tickets to this confreance an if i can could i take her an invite some other people to go..!!!

         How great! God is thinking- bout what he thinks is best.. i love it an love him!

 My freind dana is now coming over... We're going to have a bible study, worship an prayer.. So excited she's never een here yet. She was going to come to the prayer house tonight, but when i showed up they decided on sharing with others the reason why they r having a prayer house. I felt i needed more time to hear form Jesus so decided to leave. They were a little upset, bc i'm on the worship team.. But i can't please people.... I have to please GOd. And i know he wants time my time right now.. I'll meet with the prayer house leader tomorrow, so its fine..

   Okay.. despite junk- there joy, despite fear- theres love- despite what seems like sorrow- there is promise of another day.. Thank u lord for the beginning an the end. Time an time again. I'm stunned by u an our ways.. Come breathe on this heart of mine, an bring life!

Praise GOd that he Reigns!