treasure in his hands

So its monday!!! woot woot

Great.. feel'n really overwhelmed with all I need to do. ger... I think this state leaves me wanting to be stagnet. Not wanting to move because theres so much. but I think baby steps, are so important..

With this,  it also connects with so many things we dream about in life, or desire to do, or become. 

We get so excited about them, but when we see the journey, the challenge and  I think the pain. We tend just to forget the dream of the possible. To move forward, means letting go of the things either in the present or past. 

Gosh, I tend to carry way to many burdens, or have false hopes for people  that I wish would change. I pray for them, be there for them, but my hope i think isn't pleasing God.  yeah for others, but for my benefit-

I can't be responsible for others but  my self~ and only can do so much:)

Sounds strange right~ The hope obviously is probally from or on Gods heart, but for me to feel like I have to be the one to change or help that person is rediculous. I can't!

  

My life is to honor and follow after Jesus and his heart- and when people arn't willing to move forward, it leaves me at a place to sit with them and carry their burden, or to move forward and give them to God.

This is where i'm at, I'm desiring to let go of so much that has been burdening and holding me to stay ok with a unchanging, settling life.

Thats not who I am or who God is~

Incredible things God has for those who seek him, He is a God of stragedy and creativity for his Kingdom to come on earth!

Gosh its so hard to be the one to step out of the boat when others enjoys sitting in it~

( meaning from the bible when Jesus invited Peter to walk on water..)

I just now am learning so much, of my purpose in my life! ha and i thought i already knew~

So its really not about me or what I can do, but God and what he desires to through me~

To fully live for the Lord, is to fully abandon myself and life and place it in his hands. Because I am a treasure before him, something only he has, and can use in anyway:)

.....blah...i wish there was a reggae party in my town... random thought..haha need to dance this off~