first blog..woot woot

Aight welp, been wanting to blog for awhile an finally got myself to try it out. So here I am. Have nothing profound really 2 say, but to begin my day. I'll go there..haha I woke up with a phone call to sub, i knew i would be called today too, i could just feel it. SO i left my sisters last night in Boyne city, to come home  to stay with my pup whitney a beautiful husky i might have to let go of:( Any how, though it was late from babysitting i knew i had to take the 50min drive back to my parents for the night. . Where i don't like staying but bc of the whole dog situation i sometimes will stay the night to be with her. My apartment says big no on her, an unfortuanately i may have to too:(

 Any how.. why this story is important or means anything is starting this blog i thought i could give a practical story of my faith in Jesus. And this one is simple but fits perfectly...

  So i stay the night, in my room at the parents, an as usuall can't fall asleep, though i'm tired. 1am an i'm bit lame now, wishing i could just pass out.. Haha anyways finally i fall asleep. Then as what i thought happened( despite i havn't had  many sub calls at all). A recieved a  call oh great  5am to sub....i thought how rude to call so dag early.. but when i heard it was for Wolverine and not inland Lakes, I felt like GOd was saying no. I'm like um ....ok i'll press the button when they'll call u back in a hour if u change your mind... Of course the hour came... woke me up again..gerrrr getting anoying now... Still the same place, i felt again God saying no. But  i still felt i was spose to sub in ILHS. I checked online an no other sub calls. So i decided, i wasn't going to take Wolverine cause had a feeling to wait...

8:15am rolls by.. i'm sorta up but just super tired from last night an not sleeping much..I get a call from ILHS school itself.. Excuse me Miss. Mange a teacher isn't feeling good an she neeeds to go home, i know this is last minute but can u sub today!

     I said sure thing, an joked.. should i wear a mask(bc the flu is getting bad). We laughed haha(that was lame but thought b funny to write) And So the day was prety laid back teaching but very meaning ful to me. I praise GOd he let me be there to see the youth.. not just that.. but even something more precious...

 Last year after coming home for being away for bout 2yr straight in missions, God led me to work at the IRUMchurch as the youth pastor.. During this time GOd layed alot of youngsters on my heart. Not only that but, began to show me the crap their going through. There was this one family of kids particular that, He just highlighted. Well. not to give to much detail, but this yr the youngest one of this family was still living upnorth when her brother an sister moved downstate bc, they now were old enough... Any ways, this young girl, had such a loving heart she wanted to b excepted so much. But for the past year an a half. I've seen a miricle in this girls life.. What once was shy, insecure and angry girl, has turned into a the young girl she is called to be. Last week she sang at our church with another girl who's my twin everyone says.. AN sang revelation song.. it was beautiful. ..Anyways.. As i was subing today, she randomly stoped in the class i was in at the time, an saw me. She said i got a foster parents and leaving tomorrow, back down state. Man it was unexpected... THis girl means so much to me bc, despite of all the junk she had to go through she chose to give her everything to JEsus, and despite her brother an sister not excatly going the same direction. She knew who she was in CHrist... Its so neat to see, when the people u earnestly pray for come to the revelation of Jesus. Gosh nothing can stop a girl who has met face to face with the living God!

          anyways i thought that was neat... that she came here really hurting and left a totally different loving girl..Who never seizes to amaze me! 

So this was partly my day.... While the other moment of ahha', Was during emaaus( 3.5 days womens walk at the church on who God is and who u r..). This walk i did last fall, and was a great re-awaking to me of GOds love and commitment in my life. SO now its neat to serve the others who get to experiance it also through neat teachings an demonstrations, an much more i can't share as . Emmaus is spose to b a surprize..haha

      But the one thing that stuck to me was a picture an a story i saw somewhere. I forget it breifly but remember the message that grabbed me. " When i came to christ i realize i was not in control, and began to except what he has for me an given me." This was humbling... If GOd wants me here doing (whatever) but puts me here, for his purpose. Its not about me.

  I know i'v eheard this a million times. But it hit me today- His purpose, he has a prupose in my life whether i see it, understand it or like it, and will accomplish it when i say yes.

I don't want to run or be something i wasn't created to be. I want to be Hope, yes a bit energetic, abit off the wall in giggles sometimes, forgetful yes, but passionate for injustice, willing to obey God, despite anything~ And not perfect, but on my way to be my best everyday. WIth Gods strength grace and forgiveness.. night y'all

Oh and i swear another thing that stunded, me was in one of the class rooms in the library today, is the memorial there for my sister whom died at 16. she painted a picture b4 she died and it hangs in the library with a plac. I never noticed it but the girl in the picture almost lookes just like me now. It was weird... I miss her, and the goodtimes we had, but i belive she wants me to live this life to the fullest, until the great day we meet again:)